I have a lot of real friends here, and I know you care about my well being.

I found out yesterday that I am now seriously ill and quite literally on death's door. Tomorrow, I will find out if I need to be hospitalized to bring down profound inflammation with chemo, steroids, and aggressive diuretics.

I can barely breathe, and I've never felt so awful in my life. Many know I have Lyme Borreliosis, but I have Lupus, too, a serious autoimmune disease. I had been diagnosed in 2000 and treated, but the Lyme wasn't diagnosed and treated, and I got worse. Then, I was diagnosed with the Lyme and told the Lupus diagnosis was incorrect, so I was not treated for that as well. And then my gut got wrecked from so many oral antibiotics....

I found out, recently, that I indeed have both, and I seem to have Lupus Nephritis now, and this kidney involvement is terribly dangerous.

It will be fun trying to suppress my immune system on account of the Lupus while trying to keep the Lyme from advancing further....

I'm scared, sad, and so frustrated. But I'm gathering my strength and putting all career aspirations on hold. My job now is to get better, and my focus will be on that and building relationships, my faith, and ekeing the joy out of each day.

I'll keep you updated. I should know something later today.

Love you guys for real.