Damn why can't I find guys who like looking at my cock

Ok well my x wife had a long time friend that was gay. He came out of the closet when we were in high school. He was skinny and very good looking with blonde hair his name was Michael. I secretly dreamed of playing around with him but was afraid of making a move as I was straight but have secretly played around with other boys for years. One night while he was visiting my wife at our home. We were partying a little and he started hitting on me a little here and there. We were out in the backyard and my wife had gone into the house and I asked him if he wanted a line of coke and he said yes so we went to my van that was parked in the driveway and I opened the passenger side door and started to put the coke out on a book cover and he slowly started to feel me up from behind me. It felt good and he asked me if I was ok with it because he said I was hot and he couldn’t resist. I said I was ok with it and he turned me around and pulled my pants down and started sucking my cock. It felt so good and he said that my cock was so big and thick he loved my cut head. I then pulled his pants down and started sucking on his cock. It was long and skinny cut and he had really big low hanging smooth balls. I loved playing with him. We did this secretly for a couple of years

If I were you I might tell him he can't look anymore unless he's willing to touch it. He has to stroke it and make it hard. Make him do a little more each time. Pretty soon you'll have him deepthroating your cock while your girl watches.