I've had a few therapudic massages and to be honest I've been very close a few times to a nice relaxing full ejaculation but have been able to stop them but then told I was resisting treatment. Once I explained I was near that point she changed spots she was massaging. What I'm wondering is if I'm very close and just allow myself to just lay there and let go and it's been so long for me and I have a vocal reaction because it's so incredible would it offend a very good yet married lady friend of mine. I would enjoy it definitely but I dont want her uncomfortable if I react vocally or if I have a deep very full experience because of my lack of activity in recent timeline. She is aware that it's been a long time and is a very compassionate lady who I feel safe and comfortable sharing that in her presence but I'm not sure she would be as comfortable though I'm certain she would understand but I dont want to assume that she is receptive and I certainly dont want to openly ask and sound suggestive or sound as if I'm asking for it. I just dint know exactly how I want to explain I simply want to enjoy the exchange of energy and enjoy the touch and relaxation and ignore my bodies reaction until I'm moved to reaction. I just dont want to have to hold back of I get right there and I want to enjoy it's full spectrum of feelings rather than have certain manipulation.
I just want to allow it if my body feels it would be beneficial for me to.