I was always gay from the beginning but in the 50's it was so taboo..My whole family pushed me toward women when all I really wanted was a man..My father told me that if I ever brought home a women of colour or a man he would **** me..So I ended up getting married for their sake..I did however get some chances to be with guys while growing up and I loved it..I did become a nudist as soon as possible not to watch the women but to see all the men and their lovely cocks..50 years later times have changed so much..My nephew is gay and he stays with his boy friend and travels around europe together..He dosnt know how lucky he has it..If I grew up today I would have never married a women and would be openly gay and enjoying ever moment!