In-depth timeline to physiological ever lasting events that mold me to who and where I am today having all this foreskin and circumcision fetishes. Hope this is informative giving a better understanding of where I come from and maybe where I’m going with all this.

I was born in the U.S. too early and my parents were going through a divorce missed all my circumcision appointments. I grew up in a cut household where all my brothers, step brothers fathers were all cut. It was difficult.

My mom remarried and took all us kids to the doctor I was 8-9 where I found out later she requested that I be circumcised. The doctor found out I had not retracted yet to make a full assessment and sent me home with instructions to sit in a warm tub and work my foreskin back off a little at a time every time I took a bath until the head was freed. I got so excited to hear it should and could go back that I couldn’t wait to get home to take a bath. Doctor said take my time and pull back a little bit each time I took a bath but I was so hot and horny hard that it took but 1 bath. Although it happened quickly and to my surprise. A hard tug and pop it went back unexpectedly and shocked the shit out of me with the warm scalding water hit the very sensitive bare head I woke up from being passed out. Good thing I didn’t drown. It was all over for my poor foreskin after that as every night going to bed I would skin it back and pull it forward again stopping at times in the down pull to admire my cock looking cut like everyone else. Return to my doctors follow up visit the doctor was blown away at how far my foreskin has retracted and very loose from all the jacking off and play between visit. I found out at an older age from my mom that the doctor reported all good with my hood and that I didn’t require a circumcision which broke her heart and I remained intact once again.

Then when I turned 18 I went looking for others that were uncut like myself to explore and play with as everyone I came into contact with disliked my foreskin and I needed to meet others that know how to play and enjoy one. I found an uncut jack off group to join gathered on weekends in San Francisco and off I went. I realized there were only a few uncut guys including me and all the other uncut guys were older like grandfather ages. The rest were curious cut guys into foreskin worshipping which was okay my foreskin would get the attention it was looking for. In this group I met a couple cut guys into circumcision talk and play I was introduced for the first time using real medical circumcision devices on my foreskin. Because I had been around circ all my life I was interested. The group broke up shortly but I kept in contact with a few member 1 uncut and 1 cut. I was contacted months later after the group broke up not having any play for months if not a year. I was invited to his house where he was joined with 5 other cut guys to meet me and each have their way with my foreskin either foreskin worship, play, docking, and circumcision. I was down to the end of the day where one of the guys used a smaller cock pump on me. He had an idea to make me cum fast by retracting my foreskin before inserting it into the smaller diameter tube in the attempts of using the pressure and tube to pull back my foreskin and stretch my tight frenulum. It was working and I felt the build up. My head flared and he pumped faster. I exploded so hard I felt a huge pop and the stretching of my frenulum eased up allowing more of my cock to enter the cylinder but we immediately saw cum mixed with blood. He had torn my frenulum ending our play. I checked into ER claiming my frenulum ripped from first time sex and without confirming the doctor went in to numb and start a circumcision. Luckily I was a wake and asked what he was doing to confirm that he was going to circumcise me. Said it would take care of the frenulum tear and future issues. I argued with him for a long time asking I only wanted to have my frenulum sewed back and leave but he said it’s not possible as it will continue to tear. We finally agreed on him giving me a frenectomy and sending me home with resolvable stitches. So this is another time I missed getting circumcised. I healed and had more time enjoying my foreskin. After the healing I noticed my foreskin could stay back behind the head now and not slightest movement. Something I wish I could have done when younger to hide and look cut when showering at school or gym.

I continued to have no luck with the women and at 21 I got so frustrated I decided it was time and thought I was ready to get circumcised so I checked myself in. I got approved and an appointment set. Then I met a woman who is my wife today she saved my foreskin as I canceled my appointment.

Everything leading up to current contributed to the thoughts, role play and will to wanting to eventually get circumcised as it’s been etched into my brain making me think about all this 24/7 realizing this will never subside unless I get circumcised. Could my wife and I live the next half of our lives with my cock being circumcised? No more circ and foreskin play enjoyment, experiments. Until that day, the wife and I are working hard to get the most from it to limit any regrets or wishing we should have could have done stuff if I do get circumcised.