This is/will be the first post of many, about me, Bea and my journey of self discovery. No, Bea is not my real name but we will go with it, as it fits.

I will be 50 in a few months, and this may sound silly but for the first time since I was 10, I am finally able to give myself the attention I need. Meaning, I don't have anyone else to take care of!!!

This leads to a lot of confusion, and asking yourself if you are in fact good enough for husband number 3. Who by the way is hot as hell.

So for the last four years, I have been dealing with a lot of life upheaval, and figuring out who I am and what I want and like. Losing 85lbs was part of this journey. Now I am trying to rebuild the confidence that I thought I once had, or find the confidence I should have, and maybe if I get daring enough and you all like me enough, i will decide to start an onlyfans page or something.

Anyways, this was just a little about me.