| Hi, I'm a 43 year old man and had some experiences, but never finished the job so to say.
My first time was about six years ago. I met online with this 50 year old guy and we seemed to be on the same page. I wanted to fulfill my fantasy of sucking a cock and he could host, so after some chatting I gathered all my nerves and went by his house. After a few beers we went upstairs, got undressed and I laid on the bed. The first thing I noticed was I didn't mind getting naked in front of another man. He massaged my back with lotion a bit and then we started to stroke each other's cocks. I can't say I got excited by the looks of his small cock and I just didn't get hard. He changed position so we ended up side to side in 69 and I thought what the hell and started sucking his cock, while he sucked mine. I tried to take it deep since that's my fantasy, but he held my head down several times. I did not like that and it made me change my mind. I apologized, got clothed and I left quickly, even more nervous than I entered.
Still, the fantasy remained. So a few years later, again after some chatting, I met with this 48 year old, kinda weird bisexual guy in a hotel room, and this time I did get hard by the look of his, big, but kinda misformed, cock: from the base to halfway the shaft his cock was fat like a baseball and the rest was normal sized. Long story short: Again, halfway during me sucking him, I chickened out again.
And here we are, again a few years later, and I still have this raging desire to suck a nice cock, to feel it grow in my mouth and to try to deepthroat it. One thing I've learned is I like a dicpic to know what I'll be dealing with, but also that maybe I'd be more comfortable with someone I have somewhat of a connection with?
Any thoughts anyone? |
Yeah I felt pretty guilty after bailing, I know.
And now I know better communication and expectations should be set and known beforehand. Lesson learnt.
And I am absolutely not attracted to men, purely cock focussed. I wish I'd be more attracted to men; that would make things easier I assume! And I can be horny any time of the day, whether there's porn involved or not. I guess the thought of myself sucking a cock has always been there unconsciously, probably since the first time I received my first blowjob myself.
So I will keep on searching for that one person I feel comfortable enough with to live out this fantasy, cause I do realize it's not gonna go away. As it happens I just recently started chatting with this guy with a nice cock who seems to be on the same page, so I'll see how that goes.
And I know I am not gay, and even if I would be I'd be fine with it, I'm just not. I know there are a lot of similar straight guys out there , but I was just wondering if anyone could relate. And just share my thoughts and experiences with you guys.
Bailing on a guy half-way into oral sex is not very nice. Which you probably know already.
Having better communication about likes/dislikes ahead of - and during - sex is essential. "I don't want you to push my head down on your cock" is certainly appropriate for either before or during.
In my youth I did some experimenting with friends. It always involved porn or some exiting situation. One time my best friend wanted to jerk off together, when we are home alone. It was not an exciting situation and we didn't have porn. It didn't work for me and I let him down. On other occasions when we did have porn we jerked each other off. At that time I wasn't interested in exchanging blowjobs, but I now regret we never did.
Some thoughts on sucking cock follow.
First of all, you self identify as straight and you do NOT have to turn in your Straight Membership Card just because you want to suck cock. A lot of straight men do. I call these men straight cocksuckers and there are a lot of them. In my personal life I've known several and there are undoubtedly millions worldwide. When the day dawns that you fulfill your dream and you actually suck a man to climax and swallow his sperm, you may still call yourself straight if you wish.
You mentioned 69ing during one of your encounters and that is indeed a fun activity, but I like to do it during foreplay. For the main event (or events) of orgasmic climax I like to do just one thing at a time. When I'm the cocksucker I want to be able to devote my full attention to my mouth, to the dick in it and to the man who's dick it is. I want to tune in to his response to my oral service so that I can fine tune my actions on the go to give him maximum pleasure and a satisfying orgasm. When I'm being sucked I want to devote my entire attention to my dick and the service being lavished upon it.
When you take a man to climax should you swallow? YES, YES, YES! I have never, ever spit out a man's sperm. Not even on my first time. I view the sperm as a thank you gift he has given me for giving him good service. And what a fine gift it is. It's a living product of his body as there are live sperm cells in that fluid. It will go down into my gut, be digested and turn into muscle tissue in my body. Part of him will become part of me. That feels good.
I've kind of waxed poetic on the joys of sucking cock, but I think it's the ultimate in male bonding. When two buddies get together and suck each other off they become sperm brothers. You mentioned being more comfortable with someone you have a connection with. Well, look over your circle of friends and see if there is anyone who might be a possibility. Drop a few hints. Over the years I've had several straight friends. (I myself am as gay as they come.) With most, but not all, of them we eventually sucked each other's dicks. Did it spoil our friendship? Absolutely not. It brought us closer together. We were not only friends, but suck buddies.
Good luck.
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