Power drinking at a big party might be something I'd expect from an 18 yr. old, but at 43??AND with friends and co-workers??? That kind of behavior speaks volumes. Why would you knowingly place yourself in a position where you give up ALL self control? You can't tell me at your age you didn't know what would happen. Why not add three or four 'ludes to the mix while you're at it?

Any behavior therapist will tell you that you're engaging in what they'd call self-destructive activity. You need help, dude. Looking at your pictures I see you're obese. Sorry, but the pictures don't lie. I'm guessing you've got a very low sense of self worth and rather than do something about it you'd rather wallow in self pity. Put down the twinkie and pick up the dumb bell. Instead of SITTING in front of your computer for twenty minutes crying about your problems turn the damn thing off and go power walk for those same twenty minutes. You whine about having a little dick - well, you've got a little dick because your bloated gut is pulling on your organs in all kinds of wrong ways. Lose that gut and you'll probably gain two inches of dick!

You are where you are because of choices you've made, and apparently you've made some bad choices. Now here's your opportunity to make another choice- take control of your life and get yourself on a path to get healthy in body and mind as well. As Andy DuFreyne said,.. either get busy living or get busy dying. Sorry to be harsh with you dude, but you need a kick in the ass from somebody. You're 43...not 93. You've got lots of time to make it happen. It comes down to what want out of life. Your choice!!!