Since I was in my late teens (I'm nearly 50 now) I've enjoyed wearing women's clothing, particularly bras with breast forms. I don't believe I was misassigned at birth, or that I'm female, but I find wearing breasts comforting or calming and I don't necessarily get sexually aroused by dressing in women's clothes. I like colors that are typically not masculine, lace, and the way women's clothes accentuate bodies. I don't feel "feminine" wearing them, just comfortable (although wearing panties for any length of times smashes my balls and gets uncomfortable). I'm not attracted to men usually but there are some who I might try some experimentation with. I find some trans people generally attractive as long as they are feminine and not effeminate. I've never been with anyone with a penis but if that right person and circumstance came along I would try it both orally and anally. I engage in anal play alone. To me I'm a series of contradictions and can't figure myself out. I've been working toward letting my wife know about liking women's clothes but maybe not the rest. I'm really not sure what I am, and it makes it more difficult to try to explain it to her. Does anyone have any suggestion as to what my identity would be and the best way to share with my wife what my life has been for many years.